I fear of a man standing next to me. I fear of an array of dark clouds gathering, forming into a giant,little by little on the horizon. And I saw a flash of terror while walking over a small railway footbridge, lights on its roof flickering in a perfectly cold winter night. I can't let some words be spoken. I am cautious about the unforseen consequences. I live in fear,I live in hope but I can't perceive the exuberence of the present. I am the cynic.I am the critic. I laugh at people but I don't have the will to confront myself. What mockery can be greater than this?